From Apathy

From the shadows where I’ve been

In the heart of apathy

Behind the blindfold of fatigue

I stand asking,

But I cannot hear:

What is it that I need?

To my knees I fall

But even tears do not come to these –

Dull eyes.

I am sunken in the devil's ship

Away from all excitement;

Far from gratitude.

And the stars who ebb behind the clouds

And the fish beneath the sea,

Hum quietly in their muffled way

Calling out to me.

But these ears are blocked with pain and knowing,

This heart flooded with the salt.

And there in all lies sorrow

Like some senseless, heavy quilt.

Standing now

Just long enough

Going further, one step more.

Something falls to silence now,

And empties all there was before.

The quiet folds away old thoughts

And stillness enters now this place,

In and out

– Surrender now

To never-ending space.

Only breath is to be felt within

And to outwards be let go,

This is what it is

To surrender to the stillness –

To be. But not to know.

And from that place of nothingness,

Where nothing now is held

A light erupts from in the soul

So universal love is felt.

Joy and peace descend upon

This body that was far

And human thoughts do die within

To open who we truly are.